"snap." I think in my mind. I caught the bird in mid flight, and now it is burned into my memory.
Things aren't the same now. I'm not used to change or adjustments. I like things to stay the same. if there is one thing that I can't stand, it's that my life is constantly changing. And always for the worse. My father recently was killed in a pileup that left 3 other people dead. My mother was devastated, but I don't know why, they had long since fallen out of love with each other. They were divorced 5 years ago. To this very day actually. So, now i live with my mom, who I utterly dislike. It's not that she's not nice and all. She just TOO nice, all the time. I just really want to punch her in the face. HARD. I had to move 300 miles from my home to live with her and her boyfriend...He's pretty rad though. But he's nowhere near who my father was. It's funny how people can fall out of love so quickly, and then realize that they never really loved them. i'm not that way, I swear. If i love someone it's an ongoing thing. Not that I can't get over it, they are always just a part of me. They don't make love like that anymore apperantly. I wonder what the big guy upstairs would say to that. Isn't he supposed to be there to stop those bad things from happening? I thought so to, but, nope, not anymore. He's on vacation.
"snap." sorry, there was an elderly couple sitting on a park bench. It's grey out that day, but her smile lights up his eyes. It's quite lovely. Sometimes it renews my faith in that silly little thing called love.
