cut up

 I don't care how out of date cut up shirts are.

I love this! it's lovely.

Plus, it was great fun cutting it up.

Hmmm.

Working with Charcaol

yuck, yuck and more yuck.

I love and hate charcoal at the same time.

It's wonderfully messy, and fun to smudge and blend.

but it's hard for me to get the lines I want.

and I always, always always mess it up with the edge of my hand.

Bah.

Today is just kind of crappy

and. 

I look bad and should feel bad about it.

You would think I would try to at least look somewhat attractive.

but no.

I don't even feel like trying xD

curly hair? 

yes please. <3 p="p">

You.

I know that I'm not perfect. 

and you're not perfect either.

I'm sure that our relationship is far from perfect in some people's perspective.

but you know what?

You're absolutely perfect for me.

and I love it.

Every second I get to spend with you is the most amazing moment I've ever had.

It's weird for me to look back a year ago and think about how I didn't "need" anyone.

I wasn't looking for anything.

from anyone.

But you came along, and admittedly, I didn't want to "be" with you.

Not with anyone.

but somehow, you managed to make me care about you.

and then fall madly in love with you.

and then fight it for the longest time.

and then it just was.

I don't know why.

or how.

but I wouldn't trade it for anything.

I wouldn't change anything about it.

truth is, babe, I'm madly in love with you.

everything about you.

I honestly can't imagine where I would be if I hadn't stumbled upon you (because that's kind of exactly what happened..haha)

I'm yours. 100%.

Distance and Relationships.

I'm in college, he's at home.

It's only a two hour drive, yet it seems so far.

So far away, but so close at the same time.

I keep hearing people say, that long distance relationships hardly ever work out.

Especially in college.

and I just keep thinking to myself, "maybe they just weren't trying hard enough to make it work."

Because how hard can it be with today's technologies?

Skype, facebook, texting, calling.

the only part that isn't there is physically being with your other half.

and that can be difficult, sure.

but it's not unbearable.

People just don't know how to make things last anymore.

I feel like most just give up when times get rough.

I also think people underestimate the power of just trying.

good day, eh?

Today was good! 

Japanese!

So, I went to a hibachi grill for the first time ever last night. 

Literally, probably one of the best meals that I've had in a long time!

It was such a nice place, although I doubted its outside appearance.

And I have to thank my wonderful boyfriend for it!

It might even become one of my favorite places to eat!

mmmmm, I had chicken...teryaki? It was scrumpcious. 

And these delicious shrimp dumplings, oh, god.

I even attempted eating a little with chopsticks

(although, I wasn't any good at it)

Classes

My classes start tomorrow! I'm excited, and at the same time, I'm nervous.

I have Intro to Business in the morning, then FYS: Drawing later.

Two classes isn't too bad, I'd say. 

I've had to read a million things for ITB, but it's whatever. 

Plus, I got a lovely message at 5, after the library closed, that I needed to print stuff out. Looooovely.

On a good note, I got to see my super duper boyfriend last night and today. 

I missed him, so much! Finally got some cuddle time that was well needed.

Now I have to wait forever to see him.

uuuuuuhg.

200 posts, and so many include you..

I love you.

You're on my mind almost every second of every day.

You're amazing and great and all the other words I could use to describe how I feel about you.

and I miss you. I know it's only been a few days, but it's beginning to feel like forever since I've seen you.

You're one of the most important people in my life,

and I feel like now, more than ever, might be really hard.

But I believe in this shit, and I can't wait to see how the future spans out over the next four years.

Moved in.

I'm pretty sure I look like I'm incredibly tired.

Mostly because I am.

I'm all moved into college now, and I'm dreadfully missing all of everything.

If that makes sense.

I didn't think I'd miss everyone so much!

Especially my bestfriend and my boyfriend.

I cannot wait to see both of them.

and... I don't know how long that will be.

but I'm hoping not long..

Fffffffff

I'm slowly making friends, but, it's completely outside of my comfort zone.

Classes start Tuesday 

last day home.

dyed my hair auburn.

going to college.

last day home.

oh,

damn.

:)

n

So, even though I've spent almost all summer with him, I feel like it's ended all too quickly.

Sadly, I have to leave for college tomorrow and I'm going to miss everyone terribly.

Especially Doug D: 

Honestly. Best. Boyfriend. Ever. 

EVER.

and since I know youre going to read this like, 5 minutes after I post this:

:)

Pika Pika?

Honestly? 

I love pokemon, and I still play as an 18 year old girl.

Fuck it.

D:

I'm going to miss my room. Waaaaaah!

10 days. It's nuts. Oh god.

Haven't even started packing.

Big City Dreams

I think that every high school graduate that has stayed at the same school for the entirety of their school career, wants out.  Out of their parents house, out of their high school and out of their town.

I think this is especially true for anyone who grew up in a small town.

Specifically, I'm speaking for myself, and my friends.  I've known the same people for the same 10-17 years of my life.  I want out of here, this town.  Along with my father house.  He's grumpy and mad at me all the time. I can't stand it.  

I have to admit, though, I will miss Millerton, at least for a little while. How can I not? My family is around the area, not to mention my boyfriend, whom I'm not exactly excited about moving away from.  And my best friend is staying here.  That's scary, but I think I'm more excited to go away than I ever have been before.  

Just some photos

Now, I'm no professional photographer, but I think these turned out pretty nice.  Some are edited, some are not.  I'm pleased with the results.

 

 

Hmm.

This seems familiar. (:

Puppy!

On the brightside of all things today, we added a new member of our family today!

Her name is Lilly! 

We were told she is a Beagle Lab mix, and she is only 3 months old.

She's really playful and very cute.

fuck!

Wanted to go the Mall today so I could hang out with Jamie.

Until I checked my bank account balance and saw that I was in the fucking negatives. 

I freaked the fuck out.

I was so angry! I bought a laptop through Hartwick College's plan and they charged me twice for something.

Too bad that something was an almost 900 dollar charge.

How nice, right? 

So, now my plans are ruined for the day.

I have no money,

oh, and I still owe about 9k to Hartwick.

Fuck me, right?